The Ridler sisters, Suzie, Jamie and Shannon, discuss their creative projects, from challenges to celebrations, and support each other's creative lives.

Friday, July 26, 2013

July 26, 2013


This week our world has been Jinx. I spent every night sleeping on the couch so that I could be right beside her and support her when she needs it. In many ways, she's been getting better. She's eating, drinking, moving around a bit, even finding a couple of her favourite spots to curl up in. But she's also trembling and has such a hard time getting up, turning over and moving her legs. We're enjoying every moment we can with her and watching her closely to make sure she's not in any pain or distress. She's been my little Jinx since Shannon pointed her out at the Humane Society 18 years ago. I love her so much. It's going to be unbearable to say goodbye.

Although I'm working on getting back to normal, or rediscovering normal, or figuring out if there isn't even a normal. But what felt pretty normal and really awesome recently was getting to actually make vegetables on my own stove and eat them. Might be a small thing, but it's been months since I've done that. Those brussel sprouts were amazing, and I hope for more.


I have been holding on for some help. Waiting for library books and to see my doctor on Thursday. Turns out the books I got are very religious (which was so offensive), I got poured on in the rain (note wet pants), had to put hiking boots on my very burned feet and go to the doctor. Who cancelled on me suddenly. I consider her my only confidante here and had a total temper freak out in the washroom. I may have broken something.

I went back and spoke with another doctor to get meds but I really wanted to start a plan on making sure my medical info is up to date, getting tests done of me and my concerns about cancer. And just to say to someone, I need help. 

Oh well. Bought some "light brown" hair dye instead. Hair therapy on Friday instead. 


Suzie Ridler said...

Getting back to normal, I hear yeah Shannon. I've been trying to not go back into my normal "routine" but when it comes to food, absolutely. Lots of salads for me and I bet those brussel sprouts were good! Yay to getting back to real food.

Jamie Ridler Studios said...

I think in the midst of all that we've been through finding those moments, those things like vegetables you made on your own stove and dying your hair, those are the things that keep us grounded.

I've just returned to my normal practice of morning pages but seriously had a lot of resistance as I just didn't want to dive into all of the things that are in my heart. I did it though and I think that's going to help me find my way through.

Suzie, I'm so sorry that those books and your doctor were not helpful! I hope that the new ones you have in mind provide some powerful insight and support.

Shannon said...

Ah, Jinx. She's such a sweetie pie (except early in the morning... ). I'm so sad to see her going through so much but I'm so glad that she is being so well taken care of and not seeming to be futzy or in pain. I still think of her as that little ball of orange fur with litter stuck to her on that first day you brought her home.

I'm so sorry to hear that you got stood up by your Doctor, Suzie. What a time for that to happen. I hope the hair therapy turned out well and that you get a good appointment in with the doc soon.

Suzie Ridler said...

Oh sweet Jinx! What a lovely photo of her Jamie. I am glad you are spending so much time with her right now. I love that she has been in your life with Shannon by your side.

I have been thinking of doing morning pages too Jamie but am resistant, I am glad you did it though, maybe I will try again.

I can't wait for those books to arrive. It's true Shannon, the timing sucked. I didn't know how badly I was handling things until that help fell through.

I tried dying my hair light golden brown and it came out auburn. Again!